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Sunday, July 3rd, 2005
5:01 pm	random usage Well, maybe I should start using this again? I'm still at NMSU, and my rents are wicked crazy. I start play practice on the 5th, so anyone in the area early August come watch Man of La Mancha. Well this one is short, but maybe I'll do it again soon. assume dumb bitch doesn't hate mail me again. hahaha Current Mood: cheerful (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, September 11th, 2004
2:10 am	waste Please, if you dont like me, pretend I dont exist and move on with your life. If you really have something you need to get off your chest, just do it. If you really enjoy spending your time full of hate and anger, and checking my live journal just to fuel your rage, then i guess i cant stop you, but I just dont get it. Current Mood: disappointed (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 29th, 2004
9:08 am	I dont understand So last night I geta call from an ex I thought I was on good terms with. I see I was wrong, but one of the many horrible things he said was "I'm here with Laurie, and she says you're a fucking cunt. And I think that's really funny" I'm shocked. I mean this girl hasn't laid eyes on me in six years, and even then we never talked. I barely know her. So she's mad about somethign that must have happened minimum 6 years ago. I dont get it. I'm not 13 anymore, so I let go of all those 13 year old grudges. how pathetic and boring must your life be to hold on to that kind of hate? I dont get it. Though I also dont get why he called me to begin with. I understand he was drunk, i just dont understand what I did. I wrote an amasingly nice email considering how I was feeling and said that he either cools down and tells me what I did, or just delete me from his phone. but anyway, if anyone can explain this, give me some insight, I would be grateful, cause it's beyond me. Current Mood: confused (14 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 19th, 2004
11:35 pm	smoothest person alive so not long after i post the comment about me being careful about turning off the cam, i manage to get a pic of me naked up there for ... about 7 hours. hope everyone got to see, cause i may never turn the cam on again (4 Comments |Comment on this)
4:43 pm	and again I think it's awesome you guys still use this, so i guess i'll do a real entry? LANed computers for the first time yesterday. Thanks to Z and Daneil for the loaning of the nessicary parts (though at first notice of a Halo party I lose the giant length of Cat-5) But till then I have the net on my comp, which means the webcam is up! http://www.flipse.com/rose/view.html and hopefully, I'll rememebr to turn it off during the important times, liek after a shower, or when I convince poor unsuspecting virgins into my room. So.. the grand summer plans: teach little shit heads about Drama: For who ever checks this from Roswell (Geoff) I'm teachign at the Yucca Center, for those of you who dont, it's where people send there kids durign the summer cause they cant send them to school. so i have ADHD kids who resent me for being in change. nah, I'm kidding. They are great kids. they dont liek following directions, but I didn't even know kids COULD have that much talent. i guess my biggest problem is the amount kids want to touch you. But I'm getting used to it. My other job is working for my mom, basicly I enter stuff into a computer. My kind of work actually. I did her 5 months of back up work in 2 weeks and now I'm waiting for her to figure out what else she can make me do. BOHT of these jobs pay more than my last job, which i hated, so i'm doing alright. namly I'm saving up money for a trip to the North East. So if anyone is in Corning, Pittsburgh, or Detroit (i know, not the NE) from july 24th to aug 7, let me know. Dad is also willing to pay me for doing stuff around the house. i need to take him up on it soon, or i'll just have to do it anyway with out gettign paid. Ok Ok this is plenty for now. I'd claim that i'll try to update this, but really, if it happens it happens. *sigh* I really need a car. as much as i hate texas, I could use a trip there, and i'm sure I could convince a newly pierced monkey child to come with me. Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: Indiana Jones Theme (5 Comments |Comment on this)
11:12 am	another year... that seems to be as often as i update this. mybe once a year, during the summer, nothing else going on. i wonder who'll notice.... (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 4th, 2003
6:03 pm	well i've been back from vacation for about a week and now i prepare to have the ol' wisdom teeth out tomorrow. i dont mind any part of it, except getting the IV. *shiver* nothing should but put in there. i couldn't even have blood drawn because of it. i suppose tomorrow is as good a time as any to just get over it. Zerek and Bob go to pick up drew tonight, so he wont miss Z's birthday tomorrow. i'm excited for tomorrow, my crew with be together, and i'll get to drool on them all, and not eat any cake. my trip was fun, flew to cape cad, hung out with many many gays and lesibians. province town, fun fun. hehe, and then to maine, where linnells and macisos (not even close to being spelled right, in other words, my cousins on mom's side) can get "wicked" drunk on a lake. Anna and I managed to split a bottle of vodka and then go swimming. to think that not only have we lived this long but we're actually considered smart? not to mention all the beer that followed (it paddled out to us thanks to cousin Mike in a kayak(sp?)well, needless to say, i didn't need to drink to rest of the week. and will continue to not, since mix that with my painkillers would mean bad bad things. after maine, i drove back to Roswell with my sis anna. spent one night in Towanda, (easy, light drive from portland maine.) another night in knoxville tennese, and then drove to roswell. now if you'll get out a map, you'll notice that the trip from knoxvill to roswell is 300 miles longer, than the first 2 days together. once again: anna and i should not still be alive. i hate driving, and that last 200 miles, it was my turn. while anna slept with her eyes open, i blasted CCR in hopes that i would be able to make it. lucky for us, the last 100 miles has NO turns and the speed is about 70. though my brain couldn't comprehend that speed. (this was the 22nd hour of driving) the next day, i went to orientation at NMSU. it doesn't seem bad, and the rumor is that the theater dept. is pretty good. not to mention Zerek and Bob live maybe 20 yards away. well this has dragged on a bit, and though it's far from a complete rundown of the past and future, i got so many people responding last time, i will very likely continue this journal deal. ALSO, for those of you interested: the new Capt'n Bob website has begun, and though it doesn't have much it's better than any i've built. http://geocities.com/badcomixr/ though i boo geocities, i'm all for Bad Comix. Current Mood: amused Current Music: Spagehog and sublime(40oz) (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 19th, 2003
11:41 pm	way over due Today i think to myself, "when WAS the last time i updated my page at flipse.com?" and i realized that it was around december... of 2001. much much too long ago. not that i really have much to say, but if i'm going to bitch and moan about not being connected with the people of my past, maybe i should do something about it? anyway, here is an update, letting people know i'm alive. (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 8th, 2002
3:04 am	well holy shit quite the reaction from the audience i see. though geoff is correct in that i need to visit, but i'm unsure how to at this point, and... texas scares me. i dont know about Rusty's wedding yet, the TA isn't open on weekends. so i should know very soon (hopefully) now, considering my ever growing list of ailments, i go to bed now. (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 7th, 2002
12:27 pm	by request thanks to char, i suppose i'll give a minor update. yesterday i spent to day in bed, or on the couch, i didn't even make it into the kitchen, and if you know me well, you know there isn't much that i do more often, or enjoy more than eating. it's assumed i have strep type G, since that is what Eric has. i'm still tired, and unhappy, but i have errends to do today if i can, which include trying to get a plane ticket to Pa for about a week from now (not goign to be cheap) but i find that a dear friend of mine is gettign married, and i always told my self that should someoen i care about go off an' git themselves hitched, i'd be there. so we'll see just how expensive it is. and also my car is over heating. so we're goign to do some things, and how that we can fix it, since the Ford place here will do a real shitty job, or not fix it at all. what jerks. though this comes off with a negative ring to it, i'm actually ibn a very good mood, i only dred mom will come home and make me go to church, though she may fear that i'll cough on little old ladies (mwa haha ) since often when i write these, i coment on the dream i had the night before, and last night, i was in PA with #gifted. it was so real, and even though i said to myself it was a dream, i almost got myself to beleive that it wasn't. i doubt i've had too many dreams that real. though the only person portrayed very acuratly, was Lex Learn. everyone else was more excited to see me than normal. i hope mthat if i make this trip, i'll still make it to JB. since it will be my last. should i move to NY next yeaar, my new years will be home with my family, maybe if i go to NMSU, i'll still be comeing to visit, but... i dont want that. anyway, i''m goign to get a coke, and shower, since i'm way behind on that due to my condition yesterday. Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: Taco - Puttin On The Ritz (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 8th, 2001
1:47 pm	new dawn so i've had about 2 weeksof not very good days, and about a week of shitty days. no matter how much i tried to have a good mindset. my computer monitor dies, it hits me that not only am i single and lonely, but anyone i like wont like me. (at least in Roswell) i kicked a pumpkin and stained my new shoes that i really liked, and people were just very nice to me. but yesterday, i ate a yummy breakfast, and talked to poeple i liked and good things happened, i ate dinner with Bob and his family (mmm steak) and went to an EVAS Nineveh concert, which many peopel i like were there (though some didn't have much fun) and i watched a guiy i thought didn't like me much play pool (oh he's good) and i was his "girlfriend for the night" hahaha, it was a funny concept. then i went to Lindsey's. and that.. i cant even explain it. , now i've eaten and gotten a tree, so yay! anyway, wish me luck on things continueing to get better. Current Mood: rejuvenated Current Music: Soul Coughing & Weezer - American Girl (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 14th, 2001
9:46 pm	fun! i forget how much i love sitting around watching guys play guitar, and make crude jokes, and just fuck around like they dont care, mostly cause they dont. sadly i hide to go before we played Hide and Go Seek :) also, if i had been able to to stay it would have been totally g-rated *giggle* ahh, i'm kidding, but i dig it. (though a couple of these guys.. mmmmm....) these entrys are really short, but at least they're being put up, ehh? oh! it rained today, and then hailed. shit, huh? i got to run through it to get to Lindsey's house (a guy who plays guitar well, has a ferrett and owns Othello. all of which blew my mind. Also his Dad is a doctor. I guess that's it for similarities) i need to end this, have fun y'all Current Mood: excited Current Music: John Henry (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 13th, 2001
9:28 pm	first significant thought: I open the door to the cold harshness of reality last significant thought: I watch you as you watch me, sliding off into the darkness, same as countless nights before, I'm tired of watching you walk away -Thorny Goodness (Comment on this)
9:24 pm	*yawn* man kickboxing is tiring, but i feel so good! i love this song *moves to the rythm* ahh that pain in the ass love life. it ammmmmuses me so. ahh! people make me happy! i get on and BAM 5 ppl msg me. it makes me feel happy, i need that little extra lovin. Harry Poter comes out this week. yeah i bet some of you are like "pfft, lame" but i'm jazzed. esp. right now cause i'm sleep-drunk/ditzy and kinda out of it. i coudl go into it about the love life, but fuck it. there is too much, and way too complicated that if i put it all down i'd just confuzzle myself. OH! the beast, meaning my Ford Explorer has been decorated. it now has The Beast written on the sides, a pirate flagon the antenne, and will soon have a mermaid on the front. since of course, I'm a Pirate Captain. Arr. Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: Soul Coughing - Circles (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 25th, 2001
11:12 pm	i'm so lonely. blah, i hate it. i feel unattreactive and unwanted. and, well.. i wish my friends wanted to hang out with me. wow, i can tell somethign's wrong, bvecause i dont even feel like complaining. maybe i'll just go to bed, i mean, it's freakin 11 (somewhere) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 15th, 2001
5:42 pm	Excuse me, a little help over here. can anyone explain any of this "'Life'" thing to me? I get lost before i even aproach the game board. Sadly, I suppose I understand the same or more than average, and i'm still totally confuzzled. i swear it all made sense 5 years ago. Now the things I understand are the ones that have abit as much to do with me and my dad and celery. Not exactly sure what I'm rantign about? Let me give you an example, I write poetry sometimes, or a song, but i dont write it down, and if i did, i wouldn't give it to who ever I've thinking, which many will say "oh well neither do i, i use it to get out what's on my mind" btu I dont, I DRAW to let out my feelings. If it's written, than the only good it'll do me is if i give it to who ever made me that nerveracked to begin with. ahh it's all fubar anyway. but some good things have happened to balence out my confused-ed existance, I got a 1 on my Solo for chorus, and for those of you who dont know, that's good. I realize also though I feel like things aren't workign right, I must be doing somethign correct, because I've managed to climb to the level of confidant with a friend of mine, by just being myself. I wish being myself worked elsewhere, but due to being human, I'm constantly changing and things that worked 5 years ago, DO NOT work now. *sigh* but this same thing is nothign new, so I'll stop now approaching dates of varying importantance: weekend before halloween, shindig (which I'm torn about, as I will explain soon) New Years aka JB2k1, I've been trying to get a hold of Dylan, but that boy manages to be nowhere I am when I need him. and that will be for about a week. I'll float around I suppose, but i may opp. to stay in one place this year, unless that person gets tired of me, heh. Late June summer 2003. anyone who can come better! It's my senior year and I want to make it special. It'll be BarBQ and sleepover and what ever else for as long as I can. I'm countign on my #gifted peeps to roadtrip out. now that halloween thing, I find I have friends with extreme variences in personality. I want so many different peopel to be there... It really is a bitch. with out question Zerek Bob and Drew if he can, but then I want everyone from Brian G. to Dane, and all that inbetween might not work out. so, i may back up, cut the ropes, and make it very small and private, have a couple movies, and chill, since I doubt my dad wants to deal with 50 kids with fire coming out of their noses. on that note, I wonder when I'll egt to work on Bob's costume.... ahh whenever he goes to the store with me. oh! I wrote a game! fun fun end of words, end of time, end of interest. Current Mood: discontent Current Music: Squirrel Nut Zippers - Lover's Lane (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 14th, 2001
2:41 am	There is no f***ing dog you're walkign through the hallway and you hear a high pitched scream and you look around goign "huh?" so by the time you realize you were standing on the dog, she's really pissed off. my sis leaves amsg on the answering machine today "hi! i got a new cell phoen and i'm tryign it out, bye now..*pasue* how do i turn it off? ... Where's the End? *another voice* Hit End. There is no f***ing End.... " *beep* (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 27th, 2001
8:15 am	"Who can run through fields of fire? 'I can, Ican.' I am the daughter of darkness!" that is what I yelled to luke as I ran through the feild of burning daisies to escape the prison camp where I had lived for 13 years of my life. I was faster than a grass fire, and strong enough so guards flinched. My friends were my follows and I was free. Current Mood: enthralled Current Music: the whirl of my computer at 6:15 am (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, September 8th, 2001
2:09 am	good day the beast is mine! the beast being the explorer i've been dieing to have for 8 yrs. (it's a POS at times) but i love it. and hung w/ Anna and Terry and her kids. and their dog Bob, who has vita's energy, but Robby's personality. it was fun. and then i went to the Battle of The Bands, which had good music, and it was like.. you take all the peopel I like from Goddard, and put them in one place, add music and you have my night. and totally.. i love good improve, esp. about Chocolate Pudding!!!! i also like free t-shirts and sticker being thrown from the stage :) rock on. so to sleep i go, tomorrow i clean! (HAHA) OH and also, I'd liek to mention that my friend Lizzy is trying to set my up with a sophmore who looks liek Tom Smith and goes through large crowds with fake poop in his hands so peopel will get out of his way. tongith rocked Current Mood: giddy Current Music: John Henry (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 27th, 2001
8:13 pm	nothing to worry about in life there are only 2 things to worry about: if you're healthy or if you're sick if you're healthy, there's nothing to worry about if you're sick, there are only 2 things to worry about: if you live or if you die if you live, there's nothing to worry about if you die, there are only 2 things to wrry about: if you go to heaven or if you go to hell if you go to heaven, there is nothign to worry about if you go to hell, you'll be too busy shakeing hands with everyone you know to worry. Current Mood: amused Current Music: Merril Bainbridge - Garden In My Room (1 Comment |Comment on this)